I just ate peanut butter spread between two slices of bread, sandwiched. It was heavenly. It was really that good! I felt like the waves of happines just washed up all over me and i tingle and close my eyes as my taste buds engulf the flavours. I ask god 'why give me such delicacies, its just too much to handle....i want more'

I wonder, does it bring joy to god seeing us indulge in our little desires. The one bite from the bread just told me how good it was and how i never am going to experience that same feeling again. Because every bite is different.

Every touch is different. Every word is different. Everything is different. Thus everything that we do, feel love is beautiful, even the evil ones. Don't you think its just too much to handle. I totally agree with what was said in American Beauty. But i don't believe that the beauty is only found there. From what we hear, to see, touch, to smell, to speak and taste is all beauty.

Thus god has already placed in a sinful(our context) world. Correction, god has placed us in sin. therefore, we are sin. We are wrong, we are right to be wrong. Hence there is no value in our existence, unless we make somthing of it, since we KNOW about it. The ability to indulge is unique. Your soul becomes one with whatever act you indulge in.

Lets look at the big picture. We have beauty all around us, matter of fact, we are beauty. If we ourselves can't handle so much, what makes you think god could? I bet he or she is loving it right now, this instant, 24/7, till the end of time. So remember when your suffering, or no matter what your doing or doing nothing at all, someone up there or down there is indulging you, loving you, enjoying you.

So everytime i wait for the clock to strike six so i can go home from work, i know someone enjoys my anticipation, my eagerness for time to go faster and my willingness to anything to get out of that office.

Enjoy it, when i have to sit at one place, programme myself to do one thing and block out the rest of the world. It brings joy.

Cool huh. I guess at the end of the day, it is not god who indulges in you, but you yourself who loves you so much that everything is not so bad after all, its just you being part of the beauty that is around you.

Want it to make sense?.....read it s l o w l y.