Monday, February 06, 2006
What makes you stop?
I hate fear. I hate the feact that i have to live up to certain expectations. Expectations that i created. Expectations that i don't want to change because i am too high headed. I am too emotional. I am just too much drama. Its starting to get irritating. I can't focus. Its clouding my judement. If i do something out of anger, it will have adverse effects. If i do something during uncontrollable excitement, the end result is just painful. Fear. Everyone has them. I let it eat me, will i learn anything for it? I don't know. Or i do. I learn how to be immuned to it, just like every other thing in my life. Tolerance. Remember GM rice from geography? Its more resilient, more tolerant to any conditions. I have a feeling, a gut instinct, that i have this plauge. I let things hit me in the face, then i don't react, i don't do anything. Or am i standing still, while the scenery passes me by? Funny isn't it? I know that i have moved forward. The other eyes watching me however, see me standing still and they are moving past me. Left Behind. Damn fear strikes again. Crazy isn't it? After all, it is we who created fear.
Clea Duvall, i like her, because someone told me to like her, Whoopi Goldberg told me that. I like ashley olsen, because Iqbal liked mary kate olsen. I liked green even more, because Hudaa liked it once. I like Desmond because everybody else likes him. I like me, because people tell me they like me. Sad but true. Looks like i never had a life, i just took other people's interest and made it my own. I let me be influenced and easily conformed. Sad but true. Although i have my own things and interests by the way, just in case if you think i am a complete loser or something.
Ask yourself, do you like it because you like it or did someone create that liking or was it by a group or something you saw on tv that made you like it. What makes you stop? Tell me if you find out. Comment at least, because its getting lonely all by myself in this webpage. I am not begging. I want you to share.
P.S. something's wrong with the date. its 6/2/06. Monday.11.30pm. ¶ 7:30 AM
Clea Duvall, i like her, because someone told me to like her, Whoopi Goldberg told me that. I like ashley olsen, because Iqbal liked mary kate olsen. I liked green even more, because Hudaa liked it once. I like Desmond because everybody else likes him. I like me, because people tell me they like me. Sad but true. Looks like i never had a life, i just took other people's interest and made it my own. I let me be influenced and easily conformed. Sad but true. Although i have my own things and interests by the way, just in case if you think i am a complete loser or something.
Ask yourself, do you like it because you like it or did someone create that liking or was it by a group or something you saw on tv that made you like it. What makes you stop? Tell me if you find out. Comment at least, because its getting lonely all by myself in this webpage. I am not begging. I want you to share.
P.S. something's wrong with the date. its 6/2/06. Monday.11.30pm. ¶ 7:30 AM
